Before I Lost My Hair: Reflection on Psalm 90

Rachel Lopez Rosenberg reflects on losing her hair due to cancer treatments in this spoken poem. This heart wrenching animation is an interpretation of Psalm 90. 


Before I lost my hair, before needles and catheters
we walked the dog each morning, our legs stretched 
towards the breaking sun. New light catching
faithful hands, gold wedding rings, future promises.

But now You have turned my marrow, 
this body barely a shelter.

The hallways are empty. We feel your subtle darkness.

Tell me you watch me as I lie among IV lines and beeping infusion machines
You have given so many gifts and yet all of this waiting— 
the next test, another morsel of news.

What are you doing, Elusive One, while I wait for new cells to grow?

I thought I would have more time
So many like to say this too shall pass
but it is this life that passes before us like an afternoon shadow

Thinking of those mornings,
the coffee dripping in the pot, my eyes smart.
When they open again my life will be over

How long before I am all dried up?
Every day a miracle. Every night a question.
Will You wake me in the morning? 

Is this how you teach me to number my days? 

Knower of secrets, return me to myself.
These hands, this ring—they want to honor Your name.
Animated by Charlie Corriea
A G-dcast Production

Producer: Jeremy Shuback

Executive Producer: Sarah Lefton

G-d cast wishes to thank:
Evan Wolkenstein
Maya Bernstein
Dan Wolf
Alicia Jo Rabins
Russel Neiss
Danielle Foreman
Barbara Barza
Allie Wollner
Rachel Levinson
Sarah Kashinsky
All of the inspired poets who contributed to this project

As part of Ritualwell’s partnership with G-dcast, we present a series of videos that share personal stories about Jewish lifecycle events. is a San Francisco–based nonprofit that makes Jewish text come alive through animated short films, apps and tools for guided conversations. The organization is dedicated to helping make Jewish literacy attainable for as many people as possible by seamlessly combining timeless storytelling techniques with 21st century learning tools. To learn more about G-dcast, visit

The Lifecycles Project was made possible with generous support from The Koret Foundation, as part of their Initiative on Jewish Peoplehood.


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