Hineni

Hineni.
Here I am.
But am I here?

How can I ask to be written into the Book of Life
when I know G!d¹ as the Unity, not the Other,
not the white bearded Judge who decides my fate?

I pray
to write myself into the Book of Life,
to live,
to be fully awake in this moment,
to shed the distraction of the Past and the Future,
to know there is only Now,
to stop repeating my Past pain in my Present
to celebrate my connection to the All
through my Jewish identity.

Not better than,
not worse than,
just the Me I am proud I am.
Hineni.
Here I am.