We count our blessings.
We count our days.
49 days of the OmerFrom the second day of Passover until Shavuot, Jews count seven weeks – seven times seven days – to commemorate the period between the Exodus from Egypt and the Revelation at Sinai. When the Temple stood, a certain measure (omer) of barley was offered on the altar each day; today, we merely count out the days..
8 nights of SukkotLit. Booths or huts Sukkot is the autumn harvest Festival of Booths, is celebrated starting the 15th of the Jewish month of Tishrei. Jews build booths (sukkot), symbolic of the temporary shelters used by the ancient Israelites when they wandered in the desert. Traditionally, Jews eat and sleep in the sukkah for the duration of the holiday (seven days in Israel and eight outside of Israel). The lulav (palm frond), willow, myrtle, and etrog fruit are also waved together. and HanukkahThe holiday which celebrates the rededication of the Temple in Jerusalem following its conquest by the Syrians in 165 BCE. The holiday is celebrated by lighting candles in a hanukiyah oon each of eight nights. Other customs include the eating of fried foods such as latkes (potato pancakes) and sufganiot (jelly donuts), playing dreidl (a gambling game with a spinning top), and, in present day America, gift giving. and PassoverPassover is a major Jewish holiday that commemorates the Jewish people's liberation from slavery and Exodus from Egypt. Its Hebrew name is Pesakh. Its name derives from the tenth plague, in which God "passed over" the homes of the Jewish firstborn, slaying only the Egyptian firstborn. Passover is celebrated for a week, and many diaspora Jews celebrate for eight days. The holiday begins at home at a seder meal and ritual the first (and sometimes second) night. Jews tell the story of the Exodus using a text called the haggadah, and eat specific food (matzah, maror, haroset, etc)..
7 days make ShabbatShabbat is the Sabbath day, the Day of Rest, and is observed from Friday night through Saturday night. Is set aside from the rest of the week both in honor of the fact that God rested on the seventh day after creating the world. On Shabbat, many Jews observe prohibitions from various activities designated as work. Shabbat is traditionally observed with festive meals, wine, challah, prayers, the reading and studying of Torah, conjugal relations, family time, and time with friends..
And I thought I’d stopped counting
the days and the weeks and the years since we were together.
Has it only been that long?
Has it already been that long?
I remember you
And I’m still hurting.
Hagashem, Hatal –
We come to KaddishThe Aramaic memorial prayer for the dead. Mourners recite this prayer at every service, every day, in the presence of a minyan (prayer quorum) over the course of a year (for a parent) or thirty days (for a sibling or offspring). The prayer actually makes no mention of the dead, but rather prays for the sanctification and magnification of God's name.,
I just hit a wall.
I dream of the days
I would dread your call.
The words of my prayer
don’t encompass at all
that I’m still hurting.
Why aren’t you here, now?
What about the things we were going to do?
You should still be with us.
I receive solace that you’re not suffering.
But I’m here.
And I’m still hurting.
I see your face in the strangest places.
I hear you when the cantor sings your favorite tune.
I feel you through the hands of those trying to console.
And I’m still hurting.
I try to move on,
move on, carry on with life,
For I know I must keep going.
I cry, I laugh, I remember how
with you, life seemed simple,
life seemed right.
Something happened and I almost called you.
I caught myself and it cut me open again.
I thought this scab would turn into a scar.
It opens less and less with the passage of time.
I carry you with me
even if I stopped counting
how many times it’s Yizkor
and I’m still hurting.