An Imperfect Healing

A thousand times I uttered her Hebrew name.

A thousand times.

Fervently uttering prayers

for her healing.

A thousand times

I manifested the

eradication

of that cancer from your lung, Mommy.

There came a day where

I saw her spot on the

Mi Shebierakh list as a

sort of purgatory,

Trapping us

with the

false hope of recovery,

And her

among those that

still had a chance,

and the will,

to continue their fight.

Now, in her rest, she is released. Her name transferred to a record eternal.

What of a healing for us,

A healing for the broken-hearted,

The left behind,

still longing,

loving.

May our healing not be speedy,

But may it emanate

from the heavens.

May we have the time

to navigate our grief

with grace

at a pace

all our own.

May we touch both the

peaks of gratitude,

And know the depths of despair.

May our journey through this wilderness

forever change us,

drawing us closer to her memory.

May the God of our ancestors,

The One who blessed Sarah, Rebekah, Rachel, Leah, Zilphah, and Bilhah,

Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,

Bless and heal

all who knew not a perfect healing.

Help us to appreciate the perfection of the life that we lost,

Affirm the strength of our faith,

And grant us the courage

To take

one

step

At a time.

An Imperfect Healing

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