My Depression

By Alden Solovy
woman looking through a curtain from within a house

I have fallen into blackness,
A hole,
A cave without light.
How deep is this pain?
This loneliness?
This suffering and isolation?

G-d of Old,
I call out to You
From the depths of confusion and fear.
What balm will ease my suffering?
What consolation will guide me?
I am afraid and ashamed.
I am sad and lost.

G-d of healing,
Be the light that guides me
Back to myself,
Back to my joy,
Back to my holiness and wonder.
Help me to stop committing acts of violence against myself
With [self-abuse][anger][shame][food][a blade][alcohol][drugs][sex].
I know Your healing power,
Your salvation and grace.
Lead me on a journey
Back to wholeness and to self-respect.
Help me to live a life of happiness and love.


© 2014 Alden Solovy and tobendlight.com. All rights reserved.

Here’s a link to a prayer to be said on behalf of a family member or friend facing mental illness. Both prayers appear in Alden's book, Jewish Prayers of Hope and Healing.

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