How could I replace an empty exercise with something meaningful?
I confess I don’t think about my dead loved ones very often. That’s why I find our custom of observing yahrzeit, the anniversary of a death, of great value. It allows me the opportunity to remember and think about the person who is to be commemorated that day.
During the first year after my father’s death, I attended shul on Shabbat is the Sabbath day, the Day of Rest, and is observed from Friday night through Saturday night. Is set aside from the rest of the week both in honor of the fact that God rested on the seventh day after creating the world. On Shabbat, many Jews observe prohibitions from various activities designated as work. Shabbat is traditionally observed with festive meals, wine, challah, prayers, the reading and studying of Torah, conjugal relations, family time, and time with friends., and mostly concentrated on reading the translation of the LIt. Portion or chapter. The weekly parashah (parashat ha'shavua) is that portion of the Torah read weekly in synagogue. The entire Torah is divided into the number of weeks that occur over the course of a year. It is not not precisely 52 weeks because the Hebrew calendar is lunar, so some weeks have holidays with special readings, and some years are leap years. and reciting Kaddish at its time(s). I would recite the Shema and Amidah with the congregation, although it was an act of rote recitation. As a member of a Reconstructionist community, I subscribed to the idea of the divine as a process rather than a human-like entity to be addressed in prayer. After hearing my cousin, a School of traditional Jewish study. Although historically only for men, today there are some yeshivot (plural) that are for women, and there are progressive yeshivot which are coed. student in his youth, and a fast reader, complaining that he would never win the race of recitation with the “old timers,” I realized that in my davvening I had been racing them also.
How could I replace an empty exercise with something meaningful? I would use the silent standing Amidah as a time to bring to consciousness memories of my father. At first my mind was awash with feelings of loss, grief, and regret, images of sickness and suffering. I attempted to wipe these images away, replacing them by forcing myself to bring up pleasant images and memories. At first it was difficult, but gradually, each week I added to the collection. Eventually, a full rich “tape” of memories developed. Over the years I’ve been able to build up a repertoire of memories that come easily to mind: welcome, happy, filled with warmth. There is a tape for my mother and my brother as well. During a silent Lit. Standing One of the central prayers of the Jewish prayer service, recited silently while standing., a tape of warm imagery filled with meaning plays in my mind.
My personal Mourner’s Kaddish is a variant of the traditional version. In the variant, I change the focus from glorifying God’s great name to glorifying a great peace and expressing an aspiration to make peace between us and all that live on earth. This I can affirm with sincere intention and enthusiasm within my community… with an Amen and L’hayyim!
In our congregation, B’nai Lit. Group of friends Commonly has come to mean an alternative prayer community. In the 1970’s, havurot (plural) developed as an alternative to large syngagogues. Some havurot pray together; others study, socialize, or engage in some alternative activity. in Denver, Colorado, Rabbi Evette Lutman introduced a custom that I find very meaningful and valuable: During Kiddush after service, before we say the Motzi, each person observing a yahrzeit is invited to make a brief statement about their loved one, recalling the tikkun olam which they performed during their life, keeping family connections strong, supporting one another. Many times the statements go on into biographical details and anecdotes. We listen patiently. Often these are tender moments. An important element is the stating out loud of the dead person’s name, keeping their memory alive. In terms of energy, this brings forth neural imagery and new sound waves transmitted to the universe. The recent movie “Coco” expressed a similar custom based on acknowledging and refreshing memories by viewing photos of the dead on El Día de los Muertos. In these ways, we have reconstructed the custom of (Yiddish) The anniversary of a death, usually marked by the lighting of a 24-hour yahrzeit candle and the recitation of Kaddish, the memorial prayer. For U.S. Jews, the unveiling of the headstone usually takes place on or around the first yahrzeit., bringing a renewed vitality to the sacred practice of remembering.